Monday, June 20, 2011
like a ship blown from its mooring
by a wind off the sea
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Sunday, June 5, 2011
haven't updated in a long time.
in between studying and sleeping, there really isn't much time. been mostly out of the house and when i'm at home, either i'm studying or eating or sleeping.
life isn't boring though. unless when i'm studying, then that sucks.
have had a fair share of adventures. some make me smile and laugh and bubble with happiness, others make me fuming mad and sick in the stomach; some are fun, others not so.
recording for 1823fund album was quite a highlight. for once doing a profesional recording was pretty cool. met some professionals in the industry, or actually just 3.
and i finally got my guitars fixed. duh wasted moneh going to swee lee and guitar workshop and whatever rubbish i will just go back to blackwood (or rather ebenex, now it's called).
in short,
life's good. studying, not so, but i hope it'll get better.
contemplating swapping over to tumblr. would be slightly easier to work with little bite sized nuggets of updates every now and then, or pop a picture or two up. then again there's some sentimentality attached in these archives which i am probably not going to look through. then again, who still looks at this page?
will think about it if i even have time to. which is no.
Monday, May 9, 2011
lunch at sofra today with junior exco.
i think we'll all make sure that we mentor everyon properly this time.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
and it's over.
the slow feeling of loss is beginning to creep up on me.there's so much i want to say to so many people, and admittedly 1 year is not enough to get to know all my batchmates as well as i would have loved to, much less our juniors.as for my batchmates - you guys have been the crazy, hairy insane group of people i'm closest to - almost as close as family. as an 11-member club, it feels just like a large extended family, one that unfortunately will not stay together forever. every single one of you have made a hugely significant impact on my life thus far, and honestly i can't bear to have to leave you guys.
over this past year alone, i've been looking back at what we've accomplished together. and i realised that i've grown quite a lot, from being a fresh j1 to the person i am today. its ridiculous. its mind blowing. what would i have been without raffles jazz? it's a question i keep asking myself - truly, how would i have been without this group of people? how could i have gone through the year without each and every single one of you? from friday practices that we all eagerly anticipated every week and the numerous stages we've shared, to the failed mugging sessions and the downright retarded things that we do all the time.i havn't been the best that i could have. i know i have rubbed off badly with some of you with my insensitivity and my temper. its not something i'm proud of, and im grateful for how forgiving and accepting you guys have been. i owe everyone an apology, for being such a prick.it's been a challenge, having been thrown the reins from the previous exco, to guide the club to a direction we were completely unclear of. to manage working and personal relationships with each and every one of you. honestly i dont think i did a good job, but i learnt a lot from working with each and every one of you. its definitely been a humbling and eye-opening experience.if we actually went back and counted - how many hours, honestly, did we spend together in that music room/jamming studio? be it preparing for gigs, workshops, or just jamming together? the numerous dinners, planning for various events, camp, intake, etc? jazz club became almost a second home, having spent more hours with club-related stuff than sleep, or anything else. to be perfectly honest, my parents were unhappy with how much of myself i was pouring towards the club - one they argued was transient and only spanning 1.5years. while that may be true, for one of the few times in my life, i loved what i was doing: getting together with strangely like-minded people, enjoying the music which i fell in love with almost instantly, doing crazy and embarassing stuff without giving a care in the world about whether others thought we were weird because secretly inside we all are. and let's face it - jazz club has brought into my life the craziest shit and the weirdest people i have ever met. we are all weird. everyone knows that we are weird. and what's amazing is that while individually we are all low-profile weirdos, collectively as a club we are the most awesome there is. and that was why i poured my life into jazz and i've never regretted it.this past 1.5 years have been th most life-changing experience ever. it's brought me a long way, shaped me definitively into the kind of person i am now. i still have a long way to go, and that's fine - because now i know i am heading to wherever i'll end up with much more than i could have ever asked for. i'll never forget this period of my life - who would?i love all of you. seriously. you guys have been the most awesome bunch of people i could ever ask for. be it in the good times and the bad.if it were up to me i would never want to leave jazz club. unfortunately like the cliched saying goes, all good things must come to an end. and sadly, our term has ended - but i dont suppose it's something to be unhappy about - rather, the arrival of fresh faces to keep the legacy alive, makes what we've done all the more worth it.
and speaking of fresh faces, to our juniors - it feels like not long ago we were agonising over whether our juniors would be awesome. or would there EVEN be juniors who were willing to join jazz. and there was the constant fear amongst us j2s that we wouldnt be able to lead you guys properly. we wanted to be the best seniors that our juniors could have, and yet we were afraid of what was to come. none of us felt ready to teach and lead juniors when we ourselves felt lost and unsure of what we wanted to do.and i'm sure that i speak on behalf of all of the seniors when i say that you guys far surpassed our expectations. our wildest dreams, even. each and every one of you have been truly amazing, in all aspects. not only did all of you come eager to learn (and learn quickly you did!), all of you have taken so much initiative, in doing the best you can, and made concert the huge success that it was.i was commenting to peixin just now, and i'll say it again: your batch will go far. it's really heartening to see that our junior batch is so bonded and love the club so much. take heed: the friendships you forge in the following precious months together after we're gone will hold all of you together, and trust me, you will remember all these friends for life.treasure the upcoming half a year that you spend together - it probably will be the most rapid growth individually and collectively you will all experience. and it will pass by, very very quickly. soon we'll be coming back to collect a level results and you will all be leading little jazzers, training them in the culture (or cult?) that is jazz club.and then, we will look back and say with pride - those are our juniors. heck, dont talk about then - we already are very proud of each and every one of you. you have all done yourselves proud today, and deserve a pat on the back for all the hard work and effort you've put in. well done everyone!
strictly speaking, we'll never leave jazz club. it's an ingrained part of us, just like how today many alumni jazzers came back to watch and support our concert. and we'll always keep coming back, be it to crash your practices, or to watch concert next year. and the year after that. and again and again.
someone mentioned this before, but RAFFLES JAZZ IS FAMILY. nuff' said, i think.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
post 700.
tomorrow's the day.
Chase! 2010.
$007, 7pm, 2/5/2010 (2+5=7)
apt.
let's go guys, make this one awesome!
Friday, April 22, 2011
it's been very tiring.
just a little over one more week, and the past year of hard work will be over in a flash.
pshhhhhh.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
i've come to realise that actually, i am quite enjoying my current state of life. in a material aspect.
somehow i think having a nice clean comfortable home, not too big but cosy enough, to come back to satisfies me enough. so much so that honestly i dont think i would want to pursue a rich and comfortable lifestyle, living the high life.
mind you, i'm not saying i don't want money - money is always nice to have, but somehow i don't think i'd be very dissatisfied if i had to continue the current standard of living that i am having right now. it's pretty darn comfortable enough for me, and that's something to be thankful for. i've lived the high and the low, and currently now sitting somewhere along the middle line feels just right for me.
its kind of hard to explain. not being able to buy anything at my own whim and fancy - somehow i'd rather be that way rather than be able to purchase whatever i want when i want to. having nice stuff is, well, nice, but maybe i won't be as happy/satisfied? idk, unsure. reason being that i'll always keep chasing the best and the most expensive and keep spending and spending and feeling dissatisfied.
honestly all i really want to do is live a peaceful, quiet comfortable life in a comfy HDB flat with a loving wife and kids. doesnt have to be the richest lifestyle around, cos honestly speaking, it doesnt matter to me that much.
and i suppose it would be a better environment to bring up kids in a more grounded way, instead of the careless spending we see nowadays. something to keep in mind, especially when rationing my allowance.
dont know why i suddenly thought of this. contemplating the future.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
tired.
not enough time.
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